Lifes' like this.. hmmm

I regret i lost you, pls come back to me...

2009-08-13T20:33:00.000+08:00

How did I ever let you slip away
Never knowing I'd be singing this song some day
And now I'm sinking, sinking to rise no more
Ever since you closed the door

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd still be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then darlin' you, you'd still be mine

Funny, funny how time goes by
And blessings are missed in the wink of an eye
Why oh why oh why should one have to go on suffering
When every day I pray please come back to me

And you had enough love for the both of us
But I, I, I did you wrong, I admit I did
But now I'm facing the rest of my life alone,

I'd never hurt you
Never do you wrong
And never leave your side
If I could turn back the hands

There'd be nothing I wouldn't do for you
Forever honest and true to you
If you accept me back in your heart, I love you

That would be my will
Darlin' I'm begging you to take me by the hands

I'm going down, yes I am
Down on my bended knee,
And I'm gonna be right there until you return to me

If I could just turn back that little clock on the wall
Then I'd come to realize how much I love you

2009-07-21T22:15:00.003+08:00

I cant live without u baby.... I just love you too much..

"There's some things we don't talk about Rather do withoutAnd just hold the smileFalling in and out of loveAshamed and proud ofTogether all the while
You can never say neverWhy we dont know whenTime and time againYounger now than we were before

Don't let me go

Picture you're the queen of everythingAs far as the eye can seeUnder your commandI will be your guardianWhen all is crumblingSteady your hand
You can never say neverWhy we dont know whenTime, time and time againYounger now then we were before

Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and againWe're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go

2009-06-27T15:49:00.002+08:00

What change you? What happen to you... It was just a picture and you became like this.. I was only picture but you seeing someone... Im really heartbroken by your actions... really not a thought or guilt... all the fun memories we had is all long forgotten... what happen to us ... i am to be blame too... and i felt sorry and willing to wait for you because you have touch my heart too deeply and i fell in love with you too deep...

2009-06-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

the world has stop spinning for me.. she had called me her ex... i jus dunnoe what to do anymore.. i think i jus have to be strong for her... if she is happy with him then i wish her all the best.. love him more than you love me.. treasure it.. i love you but to see you happy i have to do this.. its hard but i have to.. i dunnoe.... this will be my last entry.. i shall wait for her..

2009-05-23T09:04:00.002+08:00

Im hurt but I have to be strong for her.. I made a promise which i cannot break now. I kept claiming to her I m her superman and so I shall be that man....

2009-05-20T21:44:00.002+08:00

I am working to keep our relationship better.. but i felt each time i try harder, i am losing and i know that you are seeing someone behind me... it really hurts, gave you time while i study thinkin that you want me to concentrate on my studies... I love you, but I jus dun get it... I wanna make it better pls I beg you.. how much time do i have to wait.. I dun wanna forget the beauty we create..my mind is betraying me everytime... I thought to myself that I must have trust in you, that you wouldnt do anything to hurt me because you are a good person.. thats how you grew up.. You have started work and you said you needed time. Dun want to be disturb.. I'll wait.. but for how long... i want you and only you... I want to make you smile... I'll do anything to make you happy.. it hurts but i have to.. because i love you... i never complaint.. i never question... trust is all i have for... it hurts... I love you so damn much....

My letter to my dearest......

2009-05-17T02:39:00.002+08:00

To my dearest Shiqin,

Things have been rough for us. I understand that I am to be blame for the mistakes I have done and not considering your feelings. I understand also that although I have apologise, no sorry can ever erase all these mistakes. In my relationship with you, I can proudly admit that you have brought undescribing happiness in my life for which I am really thankful for it. Right now I am feeling at a lost. You have taught me the meaning of love and from time to time, I failed to listen to you which now I regret things happened this way. It is simply to say I took things for granted. Loving you is my greatest moments in my life, a decision which I made. I love you fiercely and was ready to commit my life to you. Shiqin, you have been my life and I treasure all the things you've done to me. For one thing I promise you, my heart is always yours. Let us rebuild this love together, be stronger together. We have been through thick and thin, let us not let this setback to bring us down. Instead let us talk to each other. I love you so much Shiqin my love. And please listen to my voice and reach out to my heart.

Love
Tunggal

2009-05-17T02:32:00.002+08:00

This is a song from a band which happens to be one of my favourite band... the Craig's Brother... this song is my favourite and this is the lyrics... does sound what im going through....

"I'm sure you're in a lot of pain,

But it's supposed to feel this way

I never did this to you

Despite the beauty we create

I just can't stand beneath your weight

I don't know what to do

IæŠ¦ sure you need a helping hand

But you're stuck in sinking sand

And you're pulling me in with you

Look at the mess you drug me through

Look at the pity you pursue

IæŠ¦ falling out with you

Help me IæŠ¦ falling out with you

So make my instincts leave me be

Cause I don't want to fight or flee

But there's not much more you can take from me

Despite the pleasure we invoke

IæŠ¦ so sick of being broke

Will it hurt this much when IæŠ³e broken free?

Well I try but I can't understand

why I have to hold your hand

Every step of the way,

day after day,

you depend on my strength to pull you through

But IæŠ¦ just as weak as you"

I love her so much n i miss her.....

2009-05-06T11:06:00.002+08:00

I feel that i really am stupid... my girl of 1 n a half yrs near 2 years loves me so much but i ignore her so much... dude when will u ever grow up... the girl is the girl of your dreams and to be superman u have to be strong for her, but i didnt...... aghhh IM sorryy......

2009-05-01T10:58:00.002+08:00

thinking is wat i do best.. I love my girl as much as i love my frens.. I cant go on like this.. the loneliness is unbearable.. i forgotten how it feels to be alone.... I just dun know how long i can hold it in me.

2009-04-12T19:39:00.002+08:00

Life can be difficult at times... but you just have to take it in your stride because it has to go on.. I have experienced alot of hardships from time to time but i m proud that i still am fighting for what i believe.. I do not care what people say, telling myself to look on the brighter side of life but who am i kidding... Right now i feel as though i in a rabbit hole but i have to hold on.. it is a complicated matter... what decision i make in future will determine what i am in the future and sometimes i still felt that i am not yet ready.. the truth is i tried to be superman but even superman has problems and difficulty.. wish i could be easy... I do not know what i am searching for in life but i know i want to be a success to help clear my family's name and my dad's name so that people wont look differently on him.. my dad had been wonderful towards me and although he is wrong in his action i know he still loves his family.. Sometimes i think i am following his footsteps... but i am not him... A man has to create his own destiny... mine is uncertain and the future is still raw... still there are decisions to make.. Life's like this....

2009-04-11T13:38:00.002+08:00

Im back.. and am tired but it was a fun journey there... enjoye the time with my frens... im sure gonna miss them all... so much... it hurts so bad..... memories are to be kept at heart... well we plan to go phuket next time... looking forward to that too... i love them all .... amazing frens ive ever had....

2009-04-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

not quite finish.. i turn emotional and i pick up this song recently and its title " a wild world" by cat stevens.. here is the lyrics..,

"Now that i've lost everything to you

You say you wanna start something new

And it's breakin' my heart you're leavin'Baby, i'm grievin'

But if you wanna leave, take good care

Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear

But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world

It's hard to get by just upon a smile

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world

I'll always remember you like a child, girl

You know i've seen a lot of what the world can do

And it's breakin' my heart in two

Because i never wanna see you a sad, girl

Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave, take good care

Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Chorus

Baby, i love youBut if you wanna leave, take good care

Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware"

2009-04-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

exams are over.. today was the lat paper but the fact that emptiness still fills my heart.. i miss her so much.. but no words can forgive all the wrongs i committed on her.. why is it i am unable to detect my wrong doings.. didnt hear her well enough... feel so frustrated and just angry on myself.. no one to confide to but just to keep it to myself.. guess wat goes around comes around.. the fact that i m my father's son and i feel that im slowly becoming my father.. no doubt i promise myself not to turn to be like him only to follow the good he has done.. everyday im fighting... i cant cry.. always running away hoping that the next day is gonna be alright but it aint alright... i guess this is a test from god on my strength.. and i will hold on... the light is still there and i m holding on.... my time will come... and i will prove to them that i can do it all by myself.. ya im all alone now.. my frens can only see the good things in me but not seeing that i m actually struggling to keep afloat.. struggling is wat her dad sees in me too.... who am i proving to anyway.... life i so unpredictable when a lady tried to commit suicide by jumping off the building and landed just below and i felt helpless unable to help her... she was still breathing though... people shouted at me saying why was i just standing there not helping her.. but she landed in a sslp position which helps to clear her airway and that i dont dare to move her fearing that she might suffer from spinal injury and one move can be fatal if i move her... i explain to them, but people just ignore... i clear the debris around her with a helping neighbour for ease passage for the paramedics to tend to her... and i m guilty feeling that i should have done more... but could i have done more... i m someone who dont deserve to be help... it is a curse bounded to the name my grandma gave me....i can only express it in words..and i m sorry to evryone i ever hurt...

2009-03-28T15:11:00.002+08:00

Life is empty without her being by my side.. The pressure of school is leesn after the submittion of the research assignments... Just two more exams and assignments to go.. Then it will be back to work... My frens have been great... WIll miss them definitey once this course is over.. Had a fun time yesterday having dinner with them to commemorate the ending of our school term..there may be tough challenges ahead in all the different fields and i am sure to take on it one by one together with god's grace... From this I end my say for now...

2009-02-20T08:33:00.002+08:00

Days passed by and the attachment in St Lukes seems to be getting boring every second.. The good thing is we manage to fulfill our objectives of practising health assessment on the patients and escape from the routine work... The staffs working in the ward ive been posted to are all okay.. Well one thing im glad of..Ive got assissgnments to do.. Projects to discuss... Recently ive been reading and its a good thing though.. I was hook by the movie twilight and that gave me the spark to read its books.. And i like the some of the songs in that movie especially the ones sang by Rob Pattinson..

Let Me Sign Lyrics

"Standing by a broken tree

Her hands are all twisted

She's pointing at me

I was damned by light coming

Over I see

She spoke with a voice that

Dissrupted the sky

She said walk on over here

it's a bit of shade

I will wrap you in my arms

And she say

Let me sign

Let me sign"

2009-02-02T18:17:00.002+08:00

Today my posting has just begun... Aghh back to work... Anyway first day was quite alright.. not much stuff to do but getting there.. Been charge again... damn.,.. I admit it was yet again my fault for not attending but ive go good reasons at least to me, those bars would not understand.. Just by sitting behind the desk they think they are the war heroes... Being a patriot is not getting anywhere.. where ever ive been send to i accept but without any regcognition... Maybe im one of those who does not like to be in the spotlight.. I attend school to upgrade, get new knowledge to achieve something for the future.. this is much important to me than that... this is my rice bowl. Are they gonna compensate... No.. they would jus said that its your responsibility... jus the same.. Im human, and i can grow tired.. Aint superman you know.. Caguns... anyway, the weekend was fantastic.. Last friday went running and cycling at east coast till Changi... tiring but fun.. Saturday the whole day spend time with my girl to Batam and it was great.. Been there with her family... Its not that ive not been getting myself fit..aghhhh...

2009-01-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

Life is getting more complicated but i feel... although the project is finish, new challenges is coming ahead.. life isnt easy as it is i guess... The HPP was a success and I felt happy bout it.. Went out smoking Sheee shaahhh.. It was a fun outing, meeting new friends... Friends are important now that i realise that... Actually I know that a long time and know the different types of friends I had.. Anyway thats that for today..

2009-01-22T23:23:00.002+08:00

Life been bad to worst recently... feels so down.. got no one to turn too.. ive survived it before but now not sure if i can do it again.. studies getting tougher each day... Unable to do anything bout relationship... must hang on...

2009-01-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

This week had been a tight and rough week for me.. didnt have time to relaxzz and for myself...Two presentations this week and tml is one... Been staying back till late for this week to tie up loose ends... Loosing on tempers... Need to stay focus till this Friday.. After Friday, will be a bit relax...

2009-01-12T21:48:00.002+08:00

The days have been hard for me... Because im occuppied by thoughts which i dun actuallyknow.. somehow i wish i was some superhero like in the comics.. feel i can do alot tof things but cant.. Nice to be bloging again.. Finding that it hard nowadays.. Geronto been difficult lately. ICA on the way.. more presentation and assignment.. got to be alert.. haizzzz.....

2009-01-08T23:10:00.001+08:00

Finally, all three assignments handed in already. Slight relief felt...phew got air to breathe.. im happy yahoooooooo!!!!!

2009-01-05T00:26:00.002+08:00

For being the eledst son, I m a failure.. failure to keep this family together.. father jus left us without telling us or discussing problem with us.. wats the use of learning communication skill if u are unable to communicate with your family.. dissapointment at myself.. a failure indeed.. even to the one i love so dearly, i tried to shun her away... wat was i thinking... anger really get a rip on me again this time.. cant cry anymore... dun know how.......m i human???

a Day bEfore 2009..

2009-01-01T21:23:00.024+08:00

tHiS neW yeAR's EvE , we arEn't gOnnA sTay hOme....

AhhHA.... hEre wE aRe agAin, me & Dear dEar went tO sEE bOOm booM. But bEfore That wE mEt EarLy anD sEe wHat We dId...

firStlY wE StarT ouR dAy bY eAting JUNKIES!!!! YuM yUm!!! aNd tHE fIRsT jUnk iS tHe Choco _ sTrAw beRRI rOlll......

tHe NexT waS.....

aH YeS mE L@ds... ThE frIed SquId fRom Old ChAn ChEE.... LoOk caRefuLLy ANd yoU cAn see tHat IT lOoks Like tHe oCtopUs duDE fRom PiRaTes Of tHe cArreBian... nEXt

tHe fAmoUs sTraW_ bErrI dEsErt fRom MOS bUrgEr... aNd yes, thE cOUnter Boy Was aFraiD oF me... actuAllY wAS jUs JokIng wiTh hIm.... Hmmmm

wHaT wAS nExT.....

mY iRReSIstAble tUrkIsh dElIgHt.. YummY....

iT dIdnt StoP hErE .........

wE iNvESt On tHe LimItED Ed. eLmo neW bAlAncE iNfaNt Shoes... And iT's Cute N nIce...

LooK @ tHe detAiLs... nIce rItE..

i lIkE thE sCriBblIng @ The sideS ... It's dEar'S iDeA to CHooSE bLAck ColoUr.. n i tHink iT'S nIceR tHan tHe whitE oNe...

pArFaIt... tHe tiRamIsu dEsERt was dElIghTfUlly P@rFait....

lOok @ dEaR...yUm yUm..

>aNd dEar dEAR was crAviNg fOr...........

>sUbWaY cOOkIes.........

ThEn wE wAtcH ' bEd tiMe StoRies'

iT Was a gReat & fuNny moviE.....

aNd lAstLy, We hAd sOupie SoUp foR DINner.....

aFteR diNner we mEt Reza & rEnnY... LuckY thAT theY diDn't ArguE or Our dAy wouLd be rUin.. RezA brOught uS to hIs worK plAce opPosIte maRina fLoatIng plATfOam & thEre we WATCH bOom bOom & cOuntdown to 2009..

2008 had Been A greAt yEar fOr mE.. tHere wERe boTh gooD n Bad timeS n LessoNs lEarnt... For thIs neW yEar, My rEsoLutiOn tO sPend mOre tiMe With my FamiLy, Love mY gIrl mOrE aND LivesTrong.... tIll tHen,

H@pPy New Ye@r!!!!!

2008-12-30T23:19:00.003+08:00

today went out with my girl girl... she bought me a zara shorts and its nice... its my second zara item..heeeeee ... tommorow's new year eve... and me casa going to see boom boom....

2008-12-24T00:52:00.002+08:00

Today I met with my girl again. Went to the gym to work out a bit then went to Vivo and we ate at RaMen tEn for the first time... It was not as good to Sakae and I sTill prefer Sakae. And today I bought an EVERLAST vest which rocky wears it when he was training... Yup... the feeling to train for the 84 km was there.. It's yet to be one of the greatest hurdle in m life and a great achivement.. Glory, Victory, Passion, Livestrong, Loving.... spartans!!!! what is your profession!!!! Awooo... awooo!!!!!! HEHEEHEHE like real...but really i will trin hard and with others to supprot me, I shall not fail....

2008-12-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I watch the match between SIngapore and Vietnam and I was very dissapointed that Singapore has lost on home ground advantage. Come to think bout it, The then Singapore players are nothing compared to the times of great players like Fandi Ahmad, my all time favourite Singapore player, V. Sundramothy, Malek Awab the speedy gonzalez, Steven Lee, Lee Tong Hai, Abbas Saad and more... They were the players of my time when I was growing up and their determination really brings the roar to tha kallang stadium. Sadly now I feel that the players lack the drive and think they are superstars whereas they are not.. I was supporting them at home although I was unable to go there.. but they are a let down. So many chances to score but coundn't make use of it. Vietnam deserve the win.

NeW Stuffs For neW YeAr....

2008-12-20T23:36:00.006+08:00

ThE New AddiDas By Adi dasslEr SlippErs... FoaMing CoMfort... yoooooo....

NeW Bag , niKe the one I alwaYs wanTed...

Londales shirt @ CheaP CHeap, Good GooD..

Today we bought New stUff.... HEEEEEEEE>....

Two new FlIk-fLaK for dEar dear....

Look @ tHose Food...yum yum...

This was taken yesterday when we were eating dinner @ Disney Land.....

Recently for this week I spent time with my girl and yes we have loads of fun... Yippie!!!

2008-12-17T13:52:00.004+08:00

the outin at VIVO city.. pics of us eatin ben and jerry's ice cream... yum yum.

Hallo again.. Yup in the break week but not actually break week.. assignments, presentations.. these are fundamentals that spoils the mood.. ANyway COPD presentation aint going anywhere.. The group doesnt seem to agree and i think we just kept repeating and repeating but no one listens..Today meeting with Hez bro to interview him for another assignment.. Yesterday was a fun day for me .. Get to spend time with my dear and we watch Bolt. The hamster was very cute.. Ben and Jerry ice cream was nice.. it is my flavour..

2008-12-15T07:53:00.003+08:00

The start of my break week but it seems not to be a break week afterall.. Need to spend this week to do my assissgnments and gives me opportunity to spend more time with my family and of course dear dear... Yesterday was a tragedy for Reza and Renny.. Tried to help them but it doesnt seem to look bright for them... Anyway i am in no position to counsel them if yes, then i am a counsellor then which i m not.. Just a nurse who specialised in Gerontology..

2008-12-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

Aghhh !!! stupid.. i should have met with my dear as today is her working nite shift.. Didnt thought of that.. Whats' worse was i forgot to bring my hand phone.. wah lau weh... What were you thinking.. But actually i didnt forget that she work nite tonite.. Went to eat with Jingle and Reena to celebrate the end of our bio test.. Finally.. Then went to buy food for my dear for her first nite.. hee hee a surprise, i achieve...hmm.. thouhgt that i came at the wrong time.. Bought for her our favourite meal from Yoshi and a can of coffee to keep her fresh through the nite.. Tml thinking to go and run... But where???

Standard Chartered Run 2008

2008-12-07T19:44:00.003+08:00

Ahh... Today is the day of my first half marathon and its finish and i manage to clock in @ 2hrs 17 mins.. Not bad for the first time but can be improved...

The day started

@ 0330hrs for me today.. Woke up and immediately call my dear.. Then after that went for my shower, and got ready.. Today will be the first time i wear my long tights to run.. Packed what i need to bring yesterday..

Got ready by 0400hrs..

@ 0415hrs, started to make my way to CCK stadium, to catch the 0500hrs bus to esplanade.

@0445hrs, reached there.. waited around 10 mins untill i boarded the bus.. Didnt manage totake a nap.. Was feeling rather anxious and excited..

@0530hrs, alight bus. Dropped us opposite Raffles Hotel. Dear is otw by cab..

@0545hrs, met up with dear.. make our way to the baggae near the baggage area to get ready..

@0555hrs, deposited our baggage.. then made our way to the starting point.. Actually, at this point I wanted to pee, but looking at the queue, I decided to hold my bladder.. Drank too much..

@0615hrs, we were already at the starting point.. With my mind thinking on holding my bladder, I tried to divert my attention on other stuff but failed.. Promised myself to find a toilet once the horn blow..

@0630hrs, the horn finally blows.. the starting of our first half marathon....

Ran and ran... Some of them went to the bushes and mark their territories... Not only the male but the females too.. Endurance was the test.. @ 5km mark, I was still okay.. By 10km mark, my fuel depleted, but my mind keep me pushing.. Manage to find a toilet and peed.. it was a lot of urine..Paced myself with the 2hrs 15mins pacers but @ the 20km mark i didnt manage to keep up.. Left knee starts to hurt, Right foot plantar too.. I wore the adidas adizero shoes.. Not enough of stability.. Saw my dear at along the road.. Tried to cheer for her but she was in full concentration.. Pain is temporary and I proved it.. Endure.. believe.. That is what gone through my mind..

@ the 20km mark push myself a bit more.. Was listening to the Santana song.. Drives the determination..ANd finally the last turn and u can see the finish line.. Was so happy.. push myself a bit more..Upon crossing I raised both my hands with joy and I completed my half marathon.. That was not the end.. Waited for dear.. AND finally @ 2hrs 58mins, manage to spot her.. Was very proud of her finishing the 21km run.. Its also her first half marathon and she did not bad.. We waited for Aaron but didnt manage to spot him.. He finished his race but cant join us because there was an emergency @ home.. Waited for Nizar and Liazz but the security kept pushing us away so we decided to collect our baggage and wait for him else where.. THey manage to finish their marathon, good for them.. Join with them next year.Though, for this marathon the full team was not there, I look forward for running and joining more marathons. It was a fulfilling and tiring day for all of us.. Most importantly I enjoyed it..

2008-12-05T10:25:00.002+08:00

Bought compression tights yesterday.. Was comtemplating between skins and 2 xu tights.. In the end bought the 2 xu tights.. Got it at a better price than the skins.. actually both tights offer same specification.. might be wearing it for the coming marathon on Sun.. Sunday's run.. Today collecting the race pack a expo.. Meeting the rest of the gang there..

STupid 3G armY ( like reAl)

2008-12-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today is a sucky day..Why!!! Today was actually the first day of of my reservice.. but i applied for deferment two weeks ago.. Well what you see army in the ad is different form what is reality.. It was so cock up and i m losing my mind over something not that important in my life.. I am schooling, taking my adv. dip to upgrade myself and whats more i m a sponsored student.. In my deferment i faxed over a piece of form from the school to state that i m one of their student there and most student usually faxed that form and their deferment was approved.. Sadly i do not know what is wrong with my unit that they didnt approve it.. i think they just work it for the money and not for passion.. They do not understand people.. All bunch of wayang.. Make me call here and there and wait for so long just to get a single reply.. usually lunch would always be 12 to 1 rite?? but i think the army's break is 2 hrs.. tried to get through to the line but no was busy..ANd whats more, i didnt attend morning class today.. My attendance if affected and i can be debared from my exam and wahts more to add, i m sponsored by SGH... Really pissed off today.. but lucky ma gurl comforted me..

Like this pic.. So loving...

2008-12-02T00:12:00.002+08:00

Aghhhh!!!! It sucks.... My deferment was unsuccessful.. now I need to report tommorrow and apply for deferment thats' what the ns portal told me.. And in the evening, I need to rush down to clementi camp for RT training.. Haizzzzzz.... Today after school went to swim and train my freestyle.. i need more practice.. This clash between school and ns reservice is really troubling me.. Hope it can be dissolve by tommorrow..

2008-11-29T21:58:00.002+08:00

Missed her so much.. Kept thinking of what i said and i found out that we didnt actually listen to each other.. Finally when i felt happy to listen to her voice again.. Act tough again la Tunggal.. Need to tackle another problem.. Slowly i hope my problems will discepate.. Need to study for my upcoming ICA on week 9.. Now is entering week 8.. Ill go all out this coming week..Wish me luck..

2008-11-27T11:39:00.002+08:00

Ignorance, disrespectful, i felt yeserday.. Am i a bad person that people had to do that sometimes..Even those who are close to me.. It really gets to you..

Nobody knows how much I have been through but I look at life on a different side of point.

Yes i do act funny sometimes, that doesnt make you right or mature..

seen the years more..

And you get dissapointed sometimes.

I ignored..

But there are limits...

2008-11-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

I have decided.. I SHALL GET MYSELF A ROAD BIKE!!!.But first i need to save up the cash cause i been doing some research on my own to compare the bikes and i need to see the budget too.. Its for future events... Anyway today went to run at east coast.. As it was Sunday today get to see lots of different kind of people.. I cant actually stand some of the mat mat with the floating caps and those wearing clothes to beach thinking that they are some kind of beach goers of something like that... if i think it in a psychosocial perspective, i think its a kind of a trendamong these mats to impress all the minahs with their better floating cap and " cool look "..WAKE UP and smell the roses... If anybody thinks the same, u have my support in this one... till then....

2008-11-22T17:38:00.002+08:00

I went to the CCK newly open library today to return the comics i borrowed.. After returning, i decided to enter the library to read some magazines when i was shock to discover that the library was a bit too noisy.. So i just ignored.. i pick a mag, found a seat and sat and began to browse through the pages.. Listening to my mp3 i just ignore my surroundings when this guy came and sat beside me.. Then suddenly he was answering his phone and started arguing... i was rather annoyed by him.. I just dont understand some people. Why cant this guy answered his phone outside.. Well ahhh I just kept browsing through the mag and went off after that.. People here are really so ks... I notice that before the library was renovated, the noise level is low and the place was a dead place.. After newly opened these peoples are jus like seeing the library for the first time... Haizz,,,,......till then.

2008-11-22T17:28:00.003+08:00

Ignorance, disrespectful I felt today..sometimes i asked myself if i am a bad person to be treated that way.. Yes i act funny sometimes but it doesnt make you any mature.. Seen more years.. Know more.. Experienced more..

Patience is a virtue.. Forgive and forget..I have limits..

2008-11-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

Pressure!!!!!!! presentation is nearing and i havent find any good articles yet.. i hope i will be prepared on time... Anyway, I feel I am not myself lately.. I feel that my mind was thinking but sometimes i jus do not know what i am thinking of.. Must learn to focus back on track..

2008-11-19T22:31:00.002+08:00

I stayed in school till late @ 2000hrs..Discussing on my presentation topics...stresss!!!! i can feel the pressure... Now all i need is to find articles to support my points and for my assisgnment too.. Especially the research topic. When i reach home, i went for my run and i felt it was a good run today.. constant speed.. mind endurance was there.. And it was drizzling... I was touch by my girl jus now.. it was sweet of her to send me food all the way from her work place to my school just now.. Sometimes i think i am lucky to have her for my girlfriend and i also think i have'nt been a good boyfriend.. Must change the attitude already. And must continue to live strong...

2008-11-18T21:01:00.001+08:00

SOmetimes when im sad or something, i like to refer my feelings to songs i know of..

2008-11-18T20:22:00.002+08:00

Today, i was feeling so sick.. Kept sneezing through the whole day... Feeling very lousy... With current events that occured recently, my mind was just floating..

" Yesterday, all my troubles seem so far away,

Now it looks as though they're here to stay,

Oh i believe in yesterday..

Suddenly,

I'm not half the man i use to be,

there's a shadow hanging over me,

Oh yesterday came suddenly..

Why she had to go?,

I dont know, she would'nt say.

I said something wrong,

Now i long for yesterday...

Yesterday, LOVE was such an easy game to play,

Now i need a place to hide away,

Oh i believe in yesterday.. "

( The Beatles, 1965)

Memory lane..

2008-11-16T16:57:00.001+08:00

I was organizing Dexter and found out that i took alot of pics... below are some for browsing... These are memories..

2008-11-16T15:58:00.010+08:00

New dyed hair.. and eating at swenson... yummie!!!!

Me, Reza and Renny in London..... hahaha.no la this is just at clarke quay bridge...

This pic was taken at a function at the ward.. Thanks giving cause i still remember the turkey we ate.. and here are the 4 heroes of ward 58..

This was in the ward.. Me, Nas & Shafiq.. Shafiq was going to pursue the next stage of his life that is national service.....

This when we are celebrating Azrin's departure to NYP to pursue his diploma..

This is when we are celebrating the success of Ms Kee Mong Ling... She was departuring for Australia of further studies..

Ah yes... this was the last day in th ward for Nc Goh.. She was my fav. Nc...

Meet the running teAM... the Nike hUman 08...

Safari World in bAngkok ThaIland..

and finally one more..

Back from aIrport outing with my family.....

Well there are much more.. Cant be posting all.. memories for me :)...

2008-11-15T16:00:00.001+08:00

Today, i regretted my actions.. Unable to control the anger in me.. I have fallen in the dark.. this was what i have become.... and i m sorry...............

2008-11-13T22:25:00.002+08:00

Whoa.. power.. today after school went to run with my girl and her fren, Has.. Actually made new fren today.. Anyway i ran 8 rounds the school stadium, then followed by 200m run fast repeatition.. it tiring though.. but hell good workout and prep for the 21km.. i am still thinking wheather to join the safra biathlon.. it is 1.5 km swim plus 10 km run.. Need to train on my swimming.. Need to learn freestyle.. There is a time trial, i swam 2 km at sea before but that was a long time ago.. Need to really prepare myself if im joining.. At least i wont be alone.. Nizar has agreed to join if we are up to it.. livestrong...

2008-11-11T08:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday my group and i manage to discuss on our presentation topics. find that the school library has limited resources.. But im glad as a group we manage to share our ideas and heading towrds the rite direction... Anyway i am thankful for my girl too. When i reach home, she help me find some articles on the topic.. Thats nice isnt it.. Well eventually i felt a little presured and i do not know why that i went for my run.. I felt good after that.. i think i need to try n swim cause safra is organising a biathlon next year.. its 1.5 km swim and 10km run.. i like to join it to test my endurance but have to ask my khakis and train for it too...

Training for 21km

2008-11-09T19:27:00.002+08:00

Today i went to east coast with my girl. Went there to run @ 1000hrs. Its a short run. We started at burger king and ran all the way till the garden. For today, i tried pacing myself to go faster. Actually followed running behind someone.. Not too bad. Need to work out on my breathing though.. Today is the first time also i ran with my shades on.. Now i know how Lance Armstrong felt.. duh.. lame.. Anyways after the run, joined my girl with her parents for a movie.. We watch 007 Quantum of Solace. Its action pact thrill.. Not too bad.. But this time James Bond has no cool gadget like the last movies.. Overall today is a good day.. Tml i resume school and my girl starting her PRCP..haiz got things to do. 1) need to opt for deferment. 2) need to find library resources for my project... see ya soon :)

2008-11-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

Look At Us... From the beginning till now.

2008-11-07T22:13:00.002+08:00

I went to train just now. An hour of training.. Ran round the neighbourhood and did a circuit of static exercise. It was fun..She needs time to grow.. What she been through ive been through.. life is a whole new experience through her..Her pace is fast, she is strong will.. n can stuborn too.. young n naive.. energetic and sophiscicated.. unique.. and the most important thing is .. I LOVE HER...

2008-11-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

hello. im back.. now better, yes ive healed of my sickness. anyway, it feels good. i started running again. now adding km and short sprints.. it was tiring but a fun run.. need to let my body get use to it. there was one lance armstrong ad which i like. about the body ad.. one part of it goes like this "this is my body, i can do wateva with it. i can push it, study it, tweek it, listen to it..." it is very inspirational.. well, pain is temporary and you have to livestrong..

2008-11-03T06:32:00.000+08:00

I am still unwell. Still suffering from the food poisoning i had since Sat morning. I still shit watery stools and having mild fever. Actually i wanted to go to school but the thought wat if i had to go toilet every min n wat if my fever worsen.. haiz i never been sick but there is always time for anything.

food poisoning

2008-11-02T09:11:00.000+08:00

i was struck with fever and diarhoea yesterday.. sad story.. didnt bathe the whole day. didnt eat the whole day.. just shitting the whole day. it sucks..i think its the burger king burer i ate yesterday.. damn.

2008-11-01T00:11:00.000+08:00

Did i ever tell you bout wat my girlfriend bought me for my birthday... well make a guess.. yup it is the best present i ever had. it is a Ray Band aviator which has transition lens.. i cherish it so much that i bring it to everywhere i go.. then today i bought a pair of yes thats rite sports oakley sunglassess. none other than that of the Lance Armstrong flak jacket XLJ. i bought t on line, n it was my first time buying it on line. it is selling at a good price and so i grab it. the feeling i had was the same when my girlfren bought me those aviator. i like to thank her too.. if not for her looking on line for good deals, it take me years to get those glassess. anyway she bought one too n it suits her so much. she look good with those on. the reason we bought the sunglassess is for the upcoming run both of us join which is the standard charterd run. it is the first time we are running 21km. if we can conquer this this time, the next time would be the full marathon. anyways signing off. chow........

2008-10-30T08:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to watch movie with my girl. Went to watch max payne. It is based on the popular video game n i played it before. Its cool cause it has the matrix kind of effect.. but the movie is dissappointing. Well i think it could be better. By looking at the movie poster, i thought that it would be cool with the angels at the background and all that stuff look like some kind of anime.. haiz turn out not that powrful movie after all.. Any way i am three weeks in school and i think i am adapting well. Lots of assignments and presentation coming up but i guess i can cope with good friends around and the support from my girl... anyway me signing out. see ya soon

2008-10-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

As the standard chartered run is comin near, i had started my training. From the time i was doing my reservice till now i made to a point to run on alternate day to build up on my stamina and partly my speed. although it is not to compete, but it is to strenghten my determination. As qoute by one of my idols, Lance Armstrong, " Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If i quit, however, it last forever." Whenever i run sometimes, i get tired n the thought to stop is so strong, but eventually the mind power triumps all.. the sentence by Lance Armstrong really stuck to me n i think wat he meant is true. Adding to this i believe that when u run, u would like your body to be comfortable, pampering your body to adapt to your running needs. And so without fail to i would buy running equipments from time to time to enhance my performance. i bought my products from nike. i find nike affordable and they provide with wide ranges of products. Athough adidas also provide wide ranges, i still go for nike. Its just me. Recently i bought a new pair of nike running shoes, it nike zoom limitless+(above pic). it provides stability, cushioning n comfort. My first pair of shoes is the adizero. It is very light. i am gearing up for the standard chartered run n looking forward to it.. N as Lance Armstrong is my idol, i am supporting him to get myself a pair of oakley limited edition livestrong radar sunglassess soon before the run as a reminder for me..

adv. dip

2008-10-14T19:50:00.000+08:00

ha! back again.. i know it had been a while since i log into my blog... new updates. ive started school..yes it is to pursue the next step in my nursing career. well although it is good to be back to school, there is still some mixed emotion too.. i guess tis the fact that i m still adapting life back to school.. met old and new frens. it is an 8th mth course n felt that the timetable is too crampy.. it is not like the olden days though.. its only my 2nd day n i m looking forward for the rest of 8th mth...

the fstivities......

2008-09-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hari raya is near and the preps are all started.. u shoukd have seen geylang man.. it was so packed that i sweat evry min.. but the food was nice... and with me fasting, it can be really tempting. the smoke the noise and the people, if u cant handle the crowd then geylang is not your place... i manage to find my black baju kurung though but not the red. bought it at this shop called ASA. its material i good n the sew is a piece of craftmen ship.. thats why its expensive.anyway raya is around the corner n i kind of looking forward for it. its the day of our victories..

field camp @ Lentor H.U.A!

2008-09-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

During my reservist, i was required to go for 2D 1N ield camp as part of the training being a senior medic. yup in my reservist unit i was apointed as the senior medic. anyways back to the story. it is a field camp me & my rens sort of looking forward to cause the best part of this field camp was the food that we brought along for the fild camp. we brought corn beef, hotdogs, maggie meee, biscuits n more food stuffs. it was fun. we get to cook n talk cock together.. althouugh we were tired, nothing could actually stop us from cooking during the nite cause actually it was our dinner. On the 2nd day of the field trip, we get to shoot our rifles with blanks n thats the best part of the training cause it feels as though u r in the movie n it give the black hawk down feeling... but the price we have to pay is at the end of the day, we have to clen our rifles fully loaded wtih carbon and that sucks... it was hot , tiring but it was fun... i was exhausted by the end of the exercise.. it was glad when we hear exrcise cut.. reflecting back to the two days i had fun learning and getting to konw new frenss...

2008-09-20T17:05:00.000+08:00

today my baby bao bao came over to break fast with the family.. N she came here with the cake she baked.. its very delicious... yum yum.

first trip

2008-09-20T16:47:00.000+08:00

i lke to share bout this pic which was taken during my very first trip overseas in Thailand. Its a very beautiful country where the people are so nice. the land of smiles.. the food was delicious, things a more affordable n cheap compared to Singapore.. i like it there.. this is the whole new begining to my travelling habits..

2008-09-19T16:32:00.002+08:00

Well, cant help myself from writing again.. today was a really hectic day.. i took a half- day off pass from my reservice and went back to work to settle my adv dip. lucky for me, reza had help me through it. i met him when i was exiting the camp as he was there to attend his reservice unit C.O.C ... his fren drove us home from there.. went to fetch his dad's car then hedrove us to SGH.. i reach there doin wat i need to like colleting the nessary docu n handing it respectively.. going back to school was not easy.. forms to fill n its not only one form.. after SGH i went to the connection buildingat bukit merah to submit my sureity form for approval. in one way i am exicited.. it is for my future.. Recently i m into running to keep myself at a certain level of fitness n being it a fasting month i had cut down on the ciggies.. its to prepare myself for the new balance run & standard chartered run. it is fun if u join this events with frens n your love ones.. its a motivation.. i finish the army half marathon n the nike run. N i was impress that my girlfren is jogger/ runner herself.. sometimes it was hard for me to catch up with her.. i had fun.. u know u dun hav to be a runner but @ the end of the day u jus hav to look good.. hee

my life rite now.. wow..its a new begining

2008-09-19T16:32:00.000+08:00

19/9/08 a date to remember.. set up my first blog. hopefully all goes well. its my first time.. yikes take a load off this guy.. things have gone in an unusual directions in my life. dun know whether joy bout it or not..firstly, my application for advance dip. was a success when i thought i was jus trying my luck. its kind of mix emotion im having here n dun ask me why cause i dun't even know myself.. secondly, im on 3 weeks of reservice.. N ITS' A MENTAL TORTURE!! considering the fact that i m fasting too.. well not all is bad. i have a wonderful girlfren on my side .. n not forgeting mt frens too.. sometimes, for wat i think, its how u view things in your life.. well thats that for today...