How did I ever let you slip away
Never knowing I'd be singing this song some day
And now I'm sinking, sinking to rise no more
Ever since you closed the door

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd still be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then darlin' you, you'd still be mine

Funny, funny how time goes by
And blessings are missed in the wink of an eye
Why oh why oh why should one have to go on suffering
When every day I pray please come back to me

And you had enough love for the both of us
But I, I, I did you wrong, I admit I did
But now I'm facing the rest of my life alone,

I'd never hurt you
Never do you wrong
And never leave your side
If I could turn back the hands

There'd be nothing I wouldn't do for you
Forever honest and true to you
If you accept me back in your heart, I love you

That would be my will
Darlin' I'm begging you to take me by the hands

I'm going down, yes I am
Down on my bended knee,
And I'm gonna be right there until you return to me

If I could just turn back that little clock on the wall
Then I'd come to realize how much I love you



I cant live without u baby.... I just love you too much..

"There's some things we don't talk about Rather do withoutAnd just hold the smileFalling in and out of loveAshamed and proud ofTogether all the while
You can never say neverWhy we dont know whenTime and time againYounger now than we were before

Don't let me go

Picture you're the queen of everythingAs far as the eye can seeUnder your commandI will be your guardianWhen all is crumblingSteady your hand
You can never say neverWhy we dont know whenTime, time and time againYounger now then we were before

Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and againWe're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go



What change you? What happen to you... It was just a picture and you became like this.. I was only picture but you seeing someone... Im really heartbroken by your actions... really not a thought or guilt... all the fun memories we had is all long forgotten... what happen to us ... i am to be blame too... and i felt sorry and willing to wait for you because you have touch my heart too deeply and i fell in love with you too deep...



the world has stop spinning for me.. she had called me her ex... i jus dunnoe what to do anymore.. i think i jus have to be strong for her... if she is happy with him then i wish her all the best.. love him more than you love me.. treasure it.. i love you but to see you happy i have to do this.. its hard but i have to.. i dunnoe.... this will be my last entry.. i shall wait for her..







I am working to keep our relationship better.. but i felt each time i try harder, i am losing and i know that you are seeing someone behind me... it really hurts, gave you time while i study thinkin that you want me to concentrate on my studies... I love you, but I jus dun get it... I wanna make it better pls I beg you.. how much time do i have to wait.. I dun wanna forget the beauty we create..my mind is betraying me everytime... I thought to myself that I must have trust in you, that you wouldnt do anything to hurt me because you are a good person.. thats how you grew up.. You have started work and you said you needed time. Dun want to be disturb.. I'll wait.. but for how long... i want you and only you... I want to make you smile... I'll do anything to make you happy.. it hurts but i have to.. because i love you... i never complaint.. i never question... trust is all i have for... it hurts... I love you so damn much....



To my dearest Shiqin,


Love
Tunggal







I feel that i really am stupid... my girl of 1 n a half yrs near 2 years loves me so much but i ignore her so much... dude when will u ever grow up... the girl is the girl of your dreams and to be superman u have to be strong for her, but i didnt...... aghhh IM sorryy......



thinking is wat i do best.. I love my girl as much as i love my frens.. I cant go on like this.. the loneliness is unbearable.. i forgotten how it feels to be alone.... I just dun know how long i can hold it in me.











not quite finish.. i turn emotional and i pick up this song recently and its title " a wild world" by cat stevens.. here is the lyrics..,





exams are over.. today was the lat paper but the fact that emptiness still fills my heart.. i miss her so much.. but no words can forgive all the wrongs i committed on her.. why is it i am unable to detect my wrong doings.. didnt hear her well enough... feel so frustrated and just angry on myself.. no one to confide to but just to keep it to myself.. guess wat goes around comes around.. the fact that i m my father's son and i feel that im slowly becoming my father.. no doubt i promise myself not to turn to be like him only to follow the good he has done.. everyday im fighting... i cant cry.. always running away hoping that the next day is gonna be alright but it aint alright... i guess this is a test from god on my strength.. and i will hold on... the light is still there and i m holding on.... my time will come... and i will prove to them that i can do it all by myself.. ya im all alone now.. my frens can only see the good things in me but not seeing that i m actually struggling to keep afloat.. struggling is wat her dad sees in me too.... who am i proving to anyway.... life i so unpredictable when a lady tried to commit suicide by jumping off the building and landed just below and i felt helpless unable to help her... she was still breathing though... people shouted at me saying why was i just standing there not helping her.. but she landed in a sslp position which helps to clear her airway and that i dont dare to move her fearing that she might suffer from spinal injury and one move can be fatal if i move her... i explain to them, but people just ignore... i clear the debris around her with a helping neighbour for ease passage for the paramedics to tend to her... and i m guilty feeling that i should have done more... but could i have done more... i m someone who dont deserve to be help... it is a curse bounded to the name my grandma gave me....i can only express it in words..and i m sorry to evryone i ever hurt...












Today my posting has just begun... Aghh back to work... Anyway first day was quite alright.. not much stuff to do but getting there.. Been charge again... damn.,.. I admit it was yet again my fault for not attending but ive go good reasons at least to me, those bars would not understand.. Just by sitting behind the desk they think they are the war heroes... Being a patriot is not getting anywhere.. where ever ive been send to i accept but without any regcognition... Maybe im one of those who does not like to be in the spotlight.. I attend school to upgrade, get new knowledge to achieve something for the future.. this is much important to me than that... this is my rice bowl. Are they gonna compensate... No.. they would jus said that its your responsibility... jus the same.. Im human, and i can grow tired.. Aint superman you know.. Caguns... anyway, the weekend was fantastic.. Last friday went running and cycling at east coast till Changi... tiring but fun.. Saturday the whole day spend time with my girl to Batam and it was great.. Been there with her family... Its not that ive not been getting myself fit..aghhhh...



Life is getting more complicated but i feel... although the project is finish, new challenges is coming ahead.. life isnt easy as it is i guess... The HPP was a success and I felt happy bout it.. Went out smoking Sheee shaahhh.. It was a fun outing, meeting new friends... Friends are important now that i realise that... Actually I know that a long time and know the different types of friends I had.. Anyway thats that for today..



Life been bad to worst recently... feels so down.. got no one to turn too.. ive survived it before but now not sure if i can do it again.. studies getting tougher each day... Unable to do anything bout relationship... must hang on...



This week had been a tight and rough week for me.. didnt have time to relaxzz and for myself...Two presentations this week and tml is one... Been staying back till late for this week to tie up loose ends... Loosing on tempers... Need to stay focus till this Friday.. After Friday, will be a bit relax...